Deciding to Change

I had decided to make a change to my fat status (i.e. will myself to be skinny) but it hadn't been working in the 7 years I had been trying.  I had also decided to exercise intermittently (3 times a week) but wasn't willing to change my diet. 
Guess what happened?  Nothing.  Well, not exactly nothing.  I actually kept gaining weight!  I couldn't understand it.  I thought I wasn't eating a lot.  I thought that because I was only having three meals a day and one to two snacks (I was wrong about that, too)that I must have a hormone or metabolic problem.  I went to an endocrinologist and he had the gall to tell me, fitness expert, that I needed to sleep more, exercise more and eat less because all of my levels were fine.  The nerve!  That set me over the edge.  I was inconsolable for a few days. and was convinced that he was wrong, that he didn't "get me"  or whatever.  We all know that was a bunch of bullshit, right?

So, I sat around for 5 months and kept doing what I had been doing.  I gained at least 10 more pounds and outgrew all of my clothes although I stubbornly refused to admit that.  I felt horrible.  I felt bad about myself.  I hated looking in the mirror and having pictures taken.  One day I looked at a picture my daughter had taken of me and I didn't even recognize myself.  "Sure, I had gained a little weight, but I wasn't that fat!"  I told myself. 

I decided to really take action in the middle of January.  I started exercising again with the P90 Fat Burner Express DVD.  I loved it.  I absolutely needed that release of energy.  I also joined sparkpeople.com with several friends and started tracking my food.  I made some commitments to myself, like to drink 8 glasses of water a day and to not eat in front of the TV.  I found out that I had developed some really horrendous habits over the years and didn't realize how much I had been eating until I started tracking my food. 

After two weeks I started the P90 Level 3/4  disk.  I couldn't do 2/3 of the disk.  However, instead of quitting (like I had aways done before) I did what I could and kept going.  I took breaks when I needed to.  I followed the directions and listened to what Tony said. 
It changed my life.  I know that sounds dramatic but it's true.  I fell in love with exercise and I started to like me!  Now, my daughter and I are fighting over the mirror and the camera! 
I am such a changed person that I now watch the other Beachbody infomercials (like the one for Insanity) and think "Ooh, I want to do that one after P90X).  I am starting P90X on Sunday and looking forward to it.  I want to be able to do chin-ups for the first time in my life!
Join me in this journey and please contribute your stories.